Victor La Rocco

There I updated my live journal.

So if we weren't sure before I am stupid. Otherwise things are going great. I have an interview for tomarrow for work. I'm kind of nervous. I hope I get it because then I'll be stupid with money.

I've been so busy with work lately and things have been so hectic. We had to do resets and what not and my manager is giving me a ton responsibility because he wants to promote me. It has just been a lot of stress and what not. I guess I enjoy it. Today, we were so understaffed today and I had to stay an hour and ten minutes over my shift blah. I guess it was cool I made an extra ten dollars hehe.

I've been working on music to be release as soon as I get it recorded. Plans are to record five songs and then pick the best two and release them. The other three are to be thrown into obscurity. I kind of want to release an early works of mine comp. I have tons of old tapes lying around blah. I'm not sure about the old stuff, but it might be interesting . I would have 5 complete songs to put on there(Including Super rare cover of new dawn fades that only two copies were ever made and I am not the owner of either)I would have to track down an old bnad demo and then 4-7 uncomplete instrumental songs. Plus countless tapes that I have probably thrown away. I am kind of one of those artists that likes to forget about his early works. So that may be interesting to put together. I should probably release some good stuff before trying to sell the crap based on my name hehe.

I hate how I fucking took an hour nap and now I can't fucking sleep. It's such bullshit. It's like the hour nap somehow counter act me waking up at 7 and only getting 6 hours sleep and then the night before only getting four hours. I swear sometimes I don't understand my body(note not a sex change reference.).

I wrote a new song, but I'm against sharing things right now it's only got me in trouble. It was kind of funny I was going threw my old documents and I found the original lyric version to this song I wrote called together(awesome). The song was written with a real disdain for a certain person as I was rather upset at her at the time. It included lyrics like 'I think you'd love me if I was thirty' and 'We'll be fucked up together, because we'll be friends forever'. It's actually not bad minus the fact that it has no actual meaning or only a base meaning now. Well I was stupid enough to read that certain person the lyrics and she was pissed at me. She said If I sang that song she would never talk to me. Needless to say I wish I would have took her up on that offer.

Well I'm off with my book-like post.
Sorry to flood your journals.

So there are new ways that womankind have found to fuck me over.
I won't go into on here as I am not that petty. Plus, I don't want to whine on lj.
So what has been going on?
I went to prom with em. a couple of weeks ago.
That was fun minus the bro music the dj's played.
I went to l.a. to see Jenn and had an amazing time.
Jenn is so awesome and makes believe there is at least person that
really does give a shit. I was so sad driving home. I almost cried.
It was so nice being away from everything and everyone.
I can't wait to go back. Her mom is the sweetest lady and we watched mad
critic. I want to buy the dvd set so I cant watch it all.
Work has been hardl, but rewarding and I am really close to getting
promoted. Which means I am close to moving out. Which means Jenn can come
visit me. Which means I can finally do my own thing completely.

Well Somebody told me you had a boyfriend that looked like a girl friend that I had in February of last year...
Fucking Huge...
The Killers...
Fucking Huge...

Ah I never update lala.
What's new hmmmmmmm...
Nothing and Everything.
Work actually hasn't been too bad.
Holly and I aren't talking again and I could give a shit.
I'm going to prom with my lovely emilie <3.
I'm going to LA to see my lovely jenn <3.
I'm going to see the Lovemakers this saturday.
I think I might go see Death Cab next week.
Broken Spindles are releasing their album soon. :)
They are playing here in june and I'm going to see them.
I'm listening to John Lennon right now. :)
I'm going to bed.
Nobody Told me there'd be days like these...

I know you know every move I’ll make
And you’ll notice every single mistake
I’ll make a plan that you’ll understand
I’m not your man, but I’ll steal your hand
Check…
You almost got me now
With the mistakes you found
Check…
I guess I moved too late
Now I’ll have to wait
Check…
My pawn, well he’s gone
But they aren’t that strong
I guess you know every thought before I think it
I’m close to you and my logic you blanket
You are on my side taking what is mine
You control with pride as you cross the line
Check…
I’ll take a step back
Suffer through your attack
Check…
Let me have something
As we approach nothing
Check…
The queen is dead my friend
Clever brook took her head
Looks like it’s almost over now
I don’t understand your know how
You are a riddle that makes you bitter
You are needle piercing hard to get here.
Mate?
I guess I’m out of like
It seems I’m really fucked
Mate?
Flowers bought to lie
Now they’re going to die
Mate?
My kind is all alone
I am all alone.

The only way I’ll win is if you concede
The only way we’ll win is if you concede
So take my hand?

So I never write in here when things are going good. I can't complain too much right now. My mom is out of the hospital and is doing better. I went shopping today. So Bad I spent lots of money. hehe I bought c.d.'s, a hugo boss gift set, a poster, groceries, and um yeah. Sole is bad ass everyone. Check him out. Blah I'm done

And as if this week could any worse. The icing on the cake to my week. I got a wake up call from my grand parents today telling me that my mother was in the hospital. Apparently in the morning she had a mild heart attack and was in the icu. She was stabalized and put into the tcu(less serious). So I spent my day off visiting my mother in the hospital. I fucking hate hospitals and sick mothers. :(

This has been the fucking worst week.
Complete shit.
Monday I woke up at 7 to go to work 8. Mind you I didn't get in until
3 the night before. So I dragged my ass out of bed and went to work.
A completely shitty day with no highlights. I then proceeded to go to school
until 9:30. I got my first math test back. A fucking D-. That shit doesn't happen to me. I am so pissed at myself.
So after getting out of school. I went home and went to fucking bed.
Great Grand Wonderful.
Had to work tuesday morning at 10. blah blah. Another shitty day.
There only about three good employees in my department. Everyone else
doesn't do shit. Well I had to fix the fucking camcorders. Blah.
I was supposed to be off at 6, but got held up by a customer until about
6:40. That only gave me twenty minutes between work and class.
Went to class and got out at ten. Fucking Exhausted I sat and watched
Chepelle's show. Went to bed.
Today.
Once again work early. So I wake up at about 7:20. Thinking I had to be there at
8. I rush my ass no shower no shave. I get there at 8:03.
I go and look at the schedule it says 8:30. I could have fucking taken a shower.
The day was annoyingly boring with some asshole customers. I was supposed to be off at 4:30. Ended up getting out of there at 4:50. I got home at about 5:20
and I've sat around since then. It seems like every friend I have has fallen off the face of the earth. Blah. I was supposed to hang out with mandy, but she never called back.
Holly is acting incredibly weird. So I don't know what's going on there.
She has been really short with me. The last four conversation on the phone have been short and I haven't seen here in a few days. I'm not clingy or anything it's just it seems like she is acting out of character. One thing I've learned is when she acts out of character something is up. It's probably nothing, but whatever.
Oh I'm fucking broke. I have about 50 cents in my bank account.
What a fucking week.
Tomorrow is payday and my last day before two days off.

I do apologize for this rant. It's more for me than anything else.
So if it offends you. Fuck off...

I had a really good weekend considering everything.
XOXOXO is an awesome band and really cool people.
I picked up this comp. today and surprisingly there is this song on there that is just amazing. I'm in love with this group. They are called blue ribbon.
Just fucking amazing.
Well I don't really feel like revealing anymore
I'm going to bed bye.

Isn't interesting when you have a million things racing through your mind, but you can't form one interesting sentence describing any of the things.
I find it kind of interesting that I still have issues with commitment. I have a weird lack of faith in other people. I have never ever really been in a committed relationship. Now I may have the chance and it scares the hell out of me. Whether or not I am miss reading things I don't know, but fuck it.
Life is good, bad, great, and fucked up.
But I guess that is life. I shouldn't bitch.
Love is an excuse to trust.
Why did fiona apple write one of the best emotional songs I've ever heard?

I have no fucking clue about what's going on. hehe but I am getting about 3 grand back from my irs. :)

Interestingly(is that even a word) boring day.

I ripped myself away from my pillow at eleven.
Got Ready and went to work to check my schedule.
Ended up catching Holly on lunch. What sat at starbucks and
blabbed on about nothing. She gave me this cool ass pen that has
screw driver on one side and a pen on the other.
Saw Soren and we talked with her for a few minutes.
I then went to the post office and sent my fed. taxes in.
Hehe Money Get Back...I then went and bought pants at ross.
I got a 90 dollar pair of pants for 28 dollars. They are really nice.

I then went to my grand parents to shoot the shit. blah not bad saw my mother.
Side Note: My grandparents are really cool and they don't have any problem with gay marriage. That kind of shocked me because they are older and I didn't think they would be that liberal.
I then went home and watched a little television.
Ultimate Albums: The Marshall Mathers L.P. was on vh1.
Watched that and got the urge to buy it.
So Josh and I went to Best Buy and I ended up buying three c.d.'s
Eminem: The Marshall Mathers Lp
Requiem for a Dream: Remixed.
Kill the DJ by Keoki.
They are all awesome hehe.
Well must be off midnight right with Michelle.
Night

then again the same old story.


Apparently, I am the better person and I saved your life two times.
Apparently, he really is an asshole and I was correct.
Apparently, you still haunt me and I saw this all coming.
Apparently, I am totally confused and don't know how to feel.
Apparently, you missed me.
I missed you.
Apparently, you broke my heart and broke your own.
Apparently, I am left questioning and feeling alien.
Apparently, you have learned to swallow your pride.
Apparently, I was wrong.
Apparently, I must go to bed.
Where no doubt you will haunt me, like you did last night.

It is amazing how easily I can put off doing homework
Like tonite instead of doing homework
I ended up rocking mike tyson's punch out
That is the raddest game ever.

I had a semi-shitty day at work. Blah.
Holly has been acting funny. Actually she has been being nice to me.
Blah...No Good...
I cooked dinner tonite for my family.
I did alright I prepared a salad, made twice baked potatoes and battered fish(Shitty Store Bought).
Hung out with em last night. We tried to sneak her into the cabin, but ended not being able to get by the "tough" security.
Blah I'm going to bed.

Flowers and Smeared Mirrors-----Fucking Free Form Semi-Beat
I hate the fact that you knew me so well and I barely got a glimpse of you until you had faded (fucked) away. Deception always has seemed to inspire me to grow. I am a really good liar, I lie best to myself. I would have like to have met you at a party just so I could have sobered up and completely forgot about you.
I won't buy you flowers.
Because I don't believe in smeared mirrors
I won't buy you flowers
I won't buy you flowers.
Because I don't believe don't believe anymore.
The email that I wish I would have never returned and then the first meeting I wish I never would have occurred. You will always shape my future because you are a shape in my past. I always enjoyed spending time with even when we watched TV. it was a blast. I wish I somehow knew what condition you would love me under. That is something, something I will always wonder.
I won't buy you flowers.
Because I don't believe in smeared mirrors
I won't buy you flowers.
I won't buy you flowers.
Because I don't believe don't believe anymore
you can only be sold the same shit so many times until you realize it is a waste. It's amazing how I created our world. Now I'm finding it hard to reconcile with the real world. Actually it's easier then I thought. I've learned to be happy with what I have. When I don't have you or anything I still smile. Oscar Wilde wrote "To love yourself is the beginning of a life long romance." Well I am so into that dance.
I won't buy you flowers.
Because I don't believe in smeared mirrors
I won't buy you flowers.
I won't buy you flowers.
Because I don't believe don't believe anymore

Hey I'm So nerdy that I bet my comptuer looks cooler than yours...and here's the proof

My Cool Ass Start Menu




My Awesome Desktop



How everything looks with I-tunes open

So I had a really fufilling day/week. I went out last sat. to club vicious.
New faces/Old Faces. Got to talk with Jon a little bit. There was a fight.
Missy is the most awesome girl I know next to Em. I got sick(cold) which is kind of bad. I called in monday. :(

Today was really cool though. I got a new haircut that I greatly love. (Sorry no dig. cam. so no pics.) I got my eyebrows done(How Metrosexual of me). And I dyed my hair. It looks like I'm going to look good alone this Valentine's Day.

Oh here are some pictures from the club.

Me Struting My Stuff on the dance floor.

Missy and I dancing.

Jon, Jeff(Filthy Pete), and I. Looking Tired from Dancing. Weird note: The disco ball somehow someway fell on Jeff's head. He was pretty hardcore about it though. He continued to dance.

YOU ARE NEVER ABOVE ANYTHING.



I thought I had lost my W2 tax form. I was freaking out because I had just cleaned my car/room out and thrown a lot of old paperwork away. So my thoughts were missing W2 form/Just threw out trash hmmmmm. I ended up digging through the trash for my W2 forms. It was horribly disgusting and um I didn't find it there. I ended up finding it in my nice clean house mixed up with paperwork. : (